François Lagarde, Ernst Jünger's photographer

François Lagarde installing one of his photos at the European House of Photography

In the middle of a dragging Saturday morning, the telephone rang, an already well-known voice was heard speaking impeccable French with a delicious Germanic accent: "Mon lieutenant, do you think he's possible to invite a friend, François Lagarde, to the festivities? I replied that it was no problem and my interlocutor hung up the phone in a flash as he was used to. I had met Ernst Jünger for the first time three weeks before. He called me for some time to come and with a certain deference, my lieutenant. I had realized a dream when I met him in Wilflingen, he had received me with a kindness that again had almost upset me and he had assured me of his presence for the show that we were preparing at the rear base for the return of the troops from Operation Daguet in Iraq in Nîmes. But I did not know François Lagarde, of whom the German writer spoke to me, and I had felt from the sound of his voice that it was a wish that was close to his heart. He told me that he lived in Montpellier and that he would come by his own means… Shortly after, I received another call, this time from François Lagarde who came on the phone and told me he was a photographer.

Ernst Jünger in uniform

Francois Lagarde had a soft voice and I never heard him raise it. At all times, in all circumstances, he remained master of himself and it did not seem like an effort. He had that soft, questioning voice whose questioning served as much to discover as to confirm. François had a real gentleness, which was not feigned, but he was also inhabited by a certain ferocity that I attributed to the double emancipation he was convinced he had achieved: emancipation from his environment and emancipation from all forms of limits like the people who turned twenty in 1968. François was Protestant to the very core of himself. He refused this condition and therefore boasted of having gotten rid of it, of no longer carrying the weight of his two pastor parents, but he continued to struggle, and in his heart of hearts, I always thought he was aware, even if he acted like someone who had won the bet, that the fight would still be with him. So he got rid of his Protestantism by dressing it up with a Fellini side, in search of the slightest bit of pure life, of Dionysian life, of an orgy of life… It was his agony. He never shied away from it. There is something terrible in seeing a man retain only gray, dull colors from childhood… No childish joy comes to counterbalance this feeling. If everything is a question of perspective in life, joy should always be the perspective of childhood, because the joy felt fully in a pure soul will always seem stronger than the vagaries of adult life. Time often accustoms us to our own hypocrisy. And we take that habit for a win. François Lagarde exalted an unfailing complexity. It was hard not to like him. He was impulsive, always curious and adorned with a genuinely Catholic joy. He wouldn't have liked me to give him a Catholic quality, but he would have been flattered, without admitting it of course.

It would take too long to recount our many visits to Ernst Jünger after he allowed us to get to know each other. Jünger had this sensitivity so particular that he knew people by their souls and no doubt he had first shaped this vision on the battlefields. One look was enough. A handshake. When Ernst Jünger shook your hand, it felt like a pact made as if he wanted to bury both hands in the ground to root a new oath. He knew people beyond themselves, beyond decorum, when the social layers were removed. And if we believe that the actions of each other can have the slightest meaning, we understand that a meeting initiated in this way could not fail to have a meaning, a deep meaning that would always escape its protagonists. But only here. Jünger had this infinite patience. François could take pictures of him, ask him to move, and he always allowed himself to be done and complied. Jünger showed as much ease and patience for the discussion, the questions that I asked him as for the photographs. One day, I understood that Jünger liked human contact, camaraderie, and in that he remained a soldier. And he liked the singularity. He didn't like anything that was anonymous and he pointedly showed me boxes of books sent by his publisher for signing, showing a distaste for a task that he wouldn't do anyway. He loved camaraderie, which binds and unites people and reveals them. He loved singularity, cultures and men, and this is what he was always looking for throughout the world through his travels in search of culture and singular men.

François Lagarde whose energy never dried up...

François experienced a major change: at one point the film took precedence over the photo in his mind. There were thousands and thousands of photos of rock artists, mad poets, illustrious strangers… I've never seen a bad photo of François. He always caught something that everyone missed. He was so fond of talking about this fleeting moment, he was so fond of saying that the eye was as much seen as he saw, resting his discourse then as much on Aristotle as on more recent thinkers. He called his film production company, Hors-Œil and, if at the beginning of this new adventure when he asked me what I thought of this name and of two or three others about which he hesitated, I told him that I didn't like the off-eye sound, but that it suited him well, he smiled that said it all. Another time I told him that he was doing Claudel, saying that the eye was listening, he pouted, not knowing very well whether to take it as a compliment. François was a character from Bergman, quite distant from Claudel. He had published Albert Hoffman in French and knew LSD like the back of his hand. He belonged to the 70s, but knew how to arrange them so that they are understood in our time. This is how he stirred up a number of diverse and varied and contradictory references which came together as if by magic. His eclecticism knew no bounds. He had taken LSD with William S. Burroughs and Allen Ginsberg and introduced me to Gérard-Georges Lemaire and Bruno Roy! And so he jumped from one subject to another so easily that it was hilarious. You had to follow its swarming, its journey. And there was nothing superficial in this facility to marry new themes, there was an insatiable curiosity, an appetite for life... He liked to follow in the footsteps, to like what you liked to feel or at least try to feel. what you felt and that gave you so much joy. So many things about him had to do with travel. He would have liked to make all the trips possible in the world, all the crossings, all the journeys… To follow you to the end of the world if you also wanted to follow him. And it was so easy to follow each other… One New Year we spent almost the whole night talking, he in Montpellier, me in Paris, and banging our glasses of champagne from a distance. I had taken the liberty of sending him texts from John Paul II without telling him who they were from. He read them, but I couldn't ask him to do the impossible, and especially not to become a papist. I teased him however by showing him that he had more arguments after he had known the author of the lines. He still found certain things to oppose and it was also one of his first qualities, he was not satiated, he was stimulating. Once we were talking about religion over sparkling wine with Jünger and Liselotte — I had just returned from a delightful day spent with Banine and wanted to speak with Jünger about a statement he had made regarding Buddhism which he said he loved the philosophical aspect, always this singularity which invigorated him when he encountered it — François was struck by Jünger's sudden volubility in talking about religions. François, like any good Protestant, made it clear that he, as a Protestant, could not think so. I pointed out to him that negation was out of place in his sentence unless it was in the DNA of Protestantism. He looked gray for two minutes. He didn't want anyone. The discussion was animated and joyful, without any pretension… But I remember Jünger's dynamism in evoking Catholicism, we felt in him a deep respect in the face of mystery and if, at first glance, I wanted to have his intimate opinion on religion and on the Buddhism that he said he was ready to espouse rather than the Islam of Banine which seemed to him very distant from his concerns and to question him on Catholicism, I realized that Catholicism was not at all of this part, Catholicism was apart. As is often the case with Jünger, I learned as much from him in casual discussions as during one-on-one professional meetings. I reminded Francis of this episode when we learned of Jünger's conversion to Catholicism at the end of his life.

The work of François Lagarde's life, "steel storms" filmed!

After Ernst Jünger died, we saw ourselves less. We both had changed their lives. But the magic was still exercising when we met. I had spent a weekend at home when I was on a mission in the region. We had still talked so much so we had been doing for more than a decade of his film project on Jünger, "Red and Gray" for more than a decade, he had still showed me hundreds of photos as he had been doing for a decade, photos of the Somme, he lived the First World War, he lived "steel storms", I thought he wanted to discover the secret of this written and described in his war and in particular steel. He felt a secret that he wanted to unravel there. He dreamed that he appeared on one of the thousands of photos he had taken. He dreamed of an epiphany. And an apocalypse. With this film, "Le Rouge et le Gris", François had found the work of his life which occupied him more than twenty years. And the title summed up his life: the gray that chased him from Le Havre and his childhood, which he thought he was exorcising by creating the magnificent banal gray editions, and which returned to a throbbing tempo devouring it in the daily life of the Great War. His daily life. It was the gray of the technique too, obsession with a life and so well embodied in the trench war where the technique took precedence over man and forced it to crawl without horizon, and the red, this flamboyant red, this red of life, seasons, hallucinogenic mushrooms, this red of blood which springs in a final cry, in an eternal cry. This is how during this last weekend, we also talked a lot about the illness that he knew me to know well, and that he faced with courage and determination, but also anxiety for some time. He became Bergmanian again in the face of the loneliness of the disease. He did not lose his enthusiasm even if it asked him for more efforts, and he told me that he had almost finished the work of his life. And he was about to complete it. His life was his work. Passion and enthusiasm filled him regularly and it never seemed to stop. He loved more signs than meaning and that is perhaps what caused a feeling mixed in him with bitterness and poetry. But the meaning fascinated him all the same, he had fully filmed ceremonies of the Foreign Legion where I had invited him, he had filmed a very traditional mass which was close to my heart and to which he had assisted, and his comments did not dry up, he felt in tradition an exemplary force, something impeccable that would never disappear, he was not very much to speak. did not say how much he loved forgiveness, without making a sacrament, he loved people who knew how to forgive himself. He had pushed me to read the book of Desmond Tutu, "there is no future without forgiveness". Even if sometimes new adventures led him away and prevented him from still seeing what continued to exist, François dreamed of forgiveness. Of universal forgiveness. It would have been useless to remind him that Universel said he was Catholic in Greek. He died on Friday the 13th, in a last nose.


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